Saturday, November 29, 2008

Reflections


You know, it's almost the end of 2008. I just got another year older. It's an interesting time in which we live, isn't it? It makes me want to sit down and really assess my life. What's right with it? What's wrong with it? What's in my future? What have I done well and what do I still need to learn? Where have I been and where am I going? 

The only problem is that as I sit down to do this, my mind doesn't know where to start. I instantly start thinking of all of my friends and family who might be reading this and I can't stop thinking of all of you. There are some of you that I miss so terribly that my heart hurts just thinking about it. There are some of you that I am filled with regret about things I should have told you or should have not told you. There are some that I have just seen or will likely see within the week. And here's what I'm thinking: It's all of you that still hang in there with me and are willing to glance at my bizarre writing/thoughts on occasion that really make my life meaningful. All of you are the ones who add the brushstrokes to my life that make it what it is. And I want you all to know that of all the things I'm thankful for, you all are on the top of the list.

But would you like to know what I still need to learn?
1. To balance a checkbook
2. To prioritize
3. To live fully
4. To stop feeling like I disappoint certain people.
5. To learn how to live with my adorable 12 year old daughter all the time.
6. To keep in better touch with all of  you.
7. To change my own windshield wipers.
8. To stop procrastinating.
9. To stop worrying.
10. To remember this list!

Are there things you still need to learn? Things that you want to share for me to help me take stock of my life? Feel free to leave a comment!

1 comment:

dweinstein said...

Couldn't hurt to nail everything on your list. Yet it seems to me that the reason we live and love with other people is so that we don't always have to.

It took me a long time to figure out that I don't have to handle every single thing and that I can sometimes give up some control to the people I love.

Meanwhile, I'll show you the trick for those windshield wipers.

--D